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Set your goals, write your dreams
Time-Machine:
--- Quote from: moezy-chan on December 28 2005, 11:55 am ---I have another goal:
I want to quit self-mutilating myself once and for all. I did it when I was younger, and I was able to put a stop to it a year ago, but I started up again yesterday. I don't want to kill myself, thank God, but I do want to stop hurting myself once and for all.
I even have the motivation I need; my students at Sunday school. They help become stronger. Cheer me on minna, this goal is going to be hard because I still want to do it, and I've wanted to do it for a year now.
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You can do it, Moezy-chan. I know people with issues with similar things, and they seem to be doing alright, and their reaching his goals. You just have to work to get yourself into a place where you can feel comfortable.
AkaiYuki:
--- Quote from: Tessaiga on December 28 2005, 11:43 pm ---I wanted that too at first, but then I thought I was too stupid to handle japanese school/workdays... :sweatdrop:
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XD Yeah, I've often worried about that, too... But then I realized I love Japan SO much, that even if I had to work every day the rest of my life with no breaks or anything just to live there, I'd still do it. No one who knows me in real life believes me, but it's true! I really have no passions in life except to one day live there, if even for a short time.
My only real worry about going there is not being able to get a job! XD
moezychan:
--- Quote from: TimeMachine on December 29 2005, 07:54 am ---You can do it, Moezy-chan. My bro has issues with similar things, and he seems to be doing alright, and he's reaching his goals. You just have to work to get yourself into a place where you can feel comfortable.
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Arigatou. Currently my comfort zone is college, and I don't go back until January 17th. For me it's still the 28th. 3 weeks. I always get depressed during breaks. I miss college, and I also have my Catechist classes that I teach, but that's not back until the 8th. I do stress myself out when I'm busy, but I hate it when I'm not busy. Staying busy keeps my mind off of hurting myself. When I don't have anything to do, I have too much time to think, and thinking is dangerous, because I always think of hurting myself.
Time-Machine:
--- Quote from: moezy-chan on December 29 2005, 12:10 pm ---Arigatou. Currently my comfort zone is college, and I don't go back until January 17th. For me it's still the 28th. 3 weeks. I always get depressed during breaks. I miss college, and I also have my Catechist classes that I teach, but that's not back until the 8th. I do stress myself out when I'm busy, but I hate it when I'm not busy. Staying busy keeps my mind off of hurting myself. When I don't have anything to do, I have too much time to think, and thinking is dangerous, because I always think of hurting myself.
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I know what that's like. I don't hurt myself, but I tend to get into really big depressions when I feel like I'm being unproductive or when I have nothing to do. Even worse is when I'm busy with things that are fruitless (dumb gen ed classes, for example) and I have to spend all of my time focusing on things that don't help me, and even more to the point, don't help others. I always feel like it would be better to run away or die or something. I get spend too much time thinking about how stupid everything is and I put myself in a really dangerous place. I start sleeping all the time and fall behind in classes. This happens almost every year at the beginning of the schoolyear.
Since I know what the signs are, to keep myself sane when I start to get depressed (or when I AM depressed) I try to pick one event that I know is coming (even if I have to plan one myself) so that I can tell myself to keep going so that I can get there as a healthy happy person. This year it was my friend's annual New Years party.
GOAL: Have a kick-butt awesome time at Justine's party!
When I'd get depressed and start thinking really dark thoughts, I would read something meaningful, or watch a good show (often CCS) and tell myself that all I had to get through was so much time before Justine's party. And that got me to break.
Haha...I think I got a little off-track, but I guess all I'm saying is play hard and chin up, and remember there are people who love you (like me, even without knowing you ^_^ ) and always things to look forward to.
Lillianna Megami:
My goals are:
*1* To become as great an artist as my older sister, cosin, dad, etc.
*2* Make my own comic company (almost there!)
*3* Make my own comic.
*4* Become a manga artist.
*5* Become a fantasy author.
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